Where did my little girls go?
Time keeps rolling along so quickly and, at times, it's hard to remember the past.
As I read this post from a fellow blogger, I got teary eyed... I do remember... I remember the innocence and wonder my little girls had. I wish that I knew then what I know now. I would have stopped worrying about the house and the other silly details of life that weren't important and just enjoy each and every moment with my girls. Fortunately, I was able to stay at home with my girls while they were young; however, I was young and naive. I thought my role as wife and mother was to keep a perfect home, cook a perfect meal, volunteer in the community helping others and keep the life for my husband easy so he could focus on his career. I know now that I should have been doing the opposite. I did all of it and it took a toll on me.
In the end, my marriage of 18 years fell apart (we won't go there as to the real reason - sometimes, you can't change someone who will inevitably stray!) and my life as I knew it was changed in an instant. It also took a toll on my health as I have acquired many health issues that are "silent". No one can see the pain I live with or the disease I have that could take my life. Fortunately, my life is better than it ever was. I am with the love of my life and my girls are happy and healthy and thriving. I live with a smile on my face and my chin forever up. My glass is still half full, in fact, overflowing! I have amazing friends and family who have supported us through the worst of times and now enjoy the best of times with us!
Today, after reading about this darling little girl who had found a new joy in books, I was reminded blessed I have been in my life. My girls are still full of wonder and hope. They have been given a great foundation in life and they are happy and healthy. They are positive young ladies with a huge wild world ahead of them.
I am blessed to have wonderful memories even if I feel like I could have done more, which is silly as I was always there for them and need to remember that they are who they are because of my love for them. My girls had a great life growing up, for the most part. And, now after some horrific turmoil, they have a wonderful life again. We have great memories with few regrets. I don't believe in regrets as I have seen too many people be burdened by regrets and it's hard to be happy when you feel regretful, angry or hurt. I have instilled the love of life in my girls which includes enjoying the moment and believing in the future.
As Eleanor Roosevelt stated, “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”
Dream a little dream every day!!!!
To read this fellow blogger's post click here: Sweet innocence... fellow blogger's poignant post made me teary eyed!